28.3.06

Steal (draft i)

________________Steal
my affections and will in the
fold of Your love
I've been stolen and the adoption
grows on me, in me.
Callouses on forehead
I know when Your toenails
have been cut.

And it's just You and me in the
room filling of smoke from the
broken alabaster jar.
I just left when You called me
Pen rolling out of my bag when
I ran to follow You.

Still now, surprised still
by the cristae that I thought I
knew well enough
to make a map of this matrix.
The solid lines of buzzing colours
have broken out
to a fury of static
black or white and movement that scares me.
And a wind blows down
the antenna, into
my marrows.

________________ Steal, You are a Collector
shivering to see the tall necks
swaying in bark skins,
my eyes cold and dry in Your fierce wind
Fierce.
(You are a Collector.)
Like fire.
(Not a thief.)
To terrify with jealous love
and penetrate with washing flames

Here, I am collected. And my adoption
runs deep
to waters I will pass through
and
rivers that will not overtake me
and
fire I'll come out from un-singed.
... I've been stolen by fierce love
and gathered to His side.

Singing

And my soul
bleeds all over Yours
You've been waiting for me to burst out and sing

4.3.06

Consolation

balm
bomb
breaking
chapped lips
Chapstick
cherry
lid
explosion
bomb
balm

let's try that again

balm
Gilead
balm
assuage
ah-saw-gggg
soothing
massage
Aveda oils
etheral
ethanol
fire
explosion
bomb
balm

that didn't really work